i tore it...

I tore ma Maniscus...

I was sad, mad, frustrated, scared, nervous....


im still scared.



Ma Maniscus is on tha side of ma Knee, its a ligament.


I have 2 have surgery and ima be out for 3 months. no basketball, no running, noi hard workouts...


I can Lift weights only wit ma upper body..

I have 2 miss all the games tourneys, and even tha Juco showcase.

I cant do nothin. depressing right?

well when I look in tha mirror and think damn i cant go workout today, yes. depressing..


on the other hand when i look at ma Mom who cant do anything she wants anymore bcuz of a disease i think in a more positive light becuz it cud be worse...


Im goin thru da motiionz...


so0 much goin on in ma head im goin crazy... when i cant hoop theres nothing..... I can write. like im doin right now..


shit wat else.... i aint in skoo.. man watever


basketball is wat i live and wat i die 4

i cant take it but ima have 2 of course cvuz i cnt do nothin about ma kneee....


i cant.... do nothing.

ughhh mann Im out.

flowzzz

time bein flyin by...
a neva smoke but i stay high..

off tha Life and da Dreams of me havin a wife...

paul davis gon be sumthin someday..
all i gotta do is believe and pray..

beautiful inside out is p.D.
im me and cant nobody else be me...

ive worked so hard with this basketball...
im so0 not done i wanna be a star..

i wanna make tha money...
2 help my Mom..

more importantly i juss wanna play, cuz im da bomb!

i hoop im good, matta fact i can be great!
alotta ppl dont kno it but they gon hate..

i dont even care cuz i knw wat im capable of...
all i need is ma Man above...

im listenin 2 dis R&B while im typin these lines...
i aint even dat focused while im writn these rhymes..

im kinna bein silly at 12:08
juss tryna get ma mind str8...

this aint even help... I juss cant help maself sometimes...

im out.

until i really have something 2 type about...

Just a Lil' Dreamiing, thats all. lol

Okay..... Lets seeeeeeeeeeeee where to begin.

El Camino goes 22 & 6. Wins a Title. I get mad scholarship offers....
I get a 4.0....

I get to 200 pounds and hit 6'3...

I go to a 4 year and i play 3 more years of college Basketball.
Make it to the NCAA tournament.
I graduate in like two with a Degree in business and management...

I enter the 2012 NBA draft.

Buy Mom a Home in Bel Air with my first check.

Buy me a home in Bel air also...
Thenn.... I get married to this Beautiful Young woman...

We have our 1st son. then our second and 3rd... lol and another 1. then I have ma last which will be ma baby girl...

I invest in Nike. keep doing real estate in off season...

I get a new born baby rotweiler and name her Kasondra the 2nd... Every1 will jus call her Kasey. jus like ma baby.


I get in2 my acting... and I get in 2 some movies... comedy movies and more serious films too.


get my Grandma the newest benz out.

pay 4 my brothers and sisters to get through college.

and ima juss stop there because this is wat its all about!!!!! lol

Dreamingg......

If you ever wanted 2 ever be anything, itll always be somebody datll shoot down any Dream...

There always will be haters, thas da way it iz...
Hater niggas marry hater bi%*es & have hater Kids...

But they gon have 2 take MY LIFE before they take my Drive...
Cuz when I wuz barely livin' das what kept me ALIVE.

Just tha thought that maybe it could be better than where im at, at this TIME, tryna make it outta dis grind...
Before im outta ma Mind....


~kanye West

Who still thinks Im playin about this basketBall Business???

Determination...

Hard Work...

Drive...

Love...

SUCCESS... 2 be continued

Grab whatever you want.

within reach.
ahhhhhh!
The Joy.
Of Life...

Life and its blessings.
So many take for granted.
What I cherish.
Life is too Precious.

2 Be so stubborn.
Would you have rather not been born?
You complain about material and possession.
Not learning 4rm your last lessons.

Humble yourself.
Maybe you will realize the true meaning...
Of all of those things you seem so confused about.
Try Observation.

haha Im so Happy!
Life is amazing.
Every day I Live to thee fullest.
Because Perfection is what I am Chasing.

I will not apologize for Loving my Family more than I Love myself.
I refuse to stop Loving my Basketball before any1 else.
My Life is in order.
I have all thee assistance I need.


theres more to Life than Love.
Yes, there is.
There is Success. Priority. Peace with oneself. Laughing. trying to better yourself. Creating a stable environment for yourself...

Theres more to Love than the "just the thought"
Love is a Bond. My Love is My Family.
My Love is H00pin. My Love Is God.
My Love is a smile on any and everyz Face.
Love can get too emotional...
I keep Love on My heart.
but i refuse 2 abuse it like every1 else in this world does. I wont.
I will Live with love but I will not Die because of it.


Love does push me tho0...
It has fueled me to be who I am Now.
Love makes me Drive, harder and harder...
Its passionate blessing and reward provides me with this hunger that makes me want to Win, more and More...

Life. I Need it..
The surroundings make me wanna go see more.
I have Life by its wings.
Im floating and soaring..
I wake up with tha same smile i fell asleep with lol

there is a constant feeling of how close i keep getting to this Dream...
like its happening rite in front of ma eyes.
I keep realizing so many blessings.
theyre all just in disguise.

so many ppl dont understand that.
but im truely blessed.
I have what i want and need.
no need for greed.

im on top of my world.
when i make it ill be on top of THE world.
Then I wont say a word.
Because my work and Success will speak 4 itself...
Jus as it does Now. lol


Amazing as Life is people worry about watever they can juss to create a crutch 4 themselves.. a handicap..
I already have a chip on my shoulder i dnt have 2 acknowledge my situation or wat ive been throught anymore because i am who I am and My past present and future are all visible in who I am.


ahhhhh!!!!!! Yall better Grab watever yall want while you can get...
Cuz Im takin anything and everything i can get bcuz Im hungry 4 it... ima get leftovers too.

Lifes the single most important blessing in this world.