Bad Dream.

It's me on the floor watching T.V. & brittnee on the couch with a guy I dont even talk to but it seemed like we were trying to get along tonight. Brittnee is laying between his legs and Dino is laying with a guy next to brittnee and her dude. We are all laughing and joking around, smiling. There was something on the T.V. like the awards, no it was the music channel, 907. My Moms room was next door how it used to be at the old house and it was next 2 my room which was now the living room of the house. A bed was there as i layed on my side and Jasmine comes down there and she wants 2 lay down with me & I dont react so she turns around and goes upstairs. Then i start making my bed up and there were 5 pillows. Then I layed on my bed. I usually only sleep with 2 pillows. Then My Mom yells from the other room"Paul, be nice to her before you dont have anymore friends".

I go upstairs to look for Jasmine and I go into brittnee and byrons room and byron is in there sitting at a table. Bree comes in with a lot of friends and family & they are dancing to a song i cant even remember. So I say Happy Birthday Bomb . Bree & Byron says " Her Birthday passed already" & Dominique says the same thing...I said " I know i just didnt get 2 see her on her bday thats why I was saying so now". Byron caught himself an attitude towards me.

Im walking out and I Look at Bree's face and It looks like jourdans face. So its not really Bree, but every1 is saying it is her, including myself. There are 2 feminine looking dudes at the door as i walk out, dancing and saying " this is our song!"

I continue 2 walk and see 2 more guys who came with bree, 1 of them had a beard. He says to me " Aye Man somebody stole those same shoes from me today" . I laugh then he laughs as I look down at my all royal blue pro models w/ the red stripes. Then he said " Yea Man they stole em when i was up at pepperdine". I said " I might be transferring there, i went to hampton last year, now I go to el camino then Ima transfer to pepperdine". He said " man, thats cool".

I keep walking into the next room and brittnee and this same dude are making out & jasmine is on another bed trying to go to sleep. I go up to her to pick her up and take her back to the room w/ me to be nice & she throws my arms off and says" You need it that bad?!" With a smile on her face. I walk out and then there are helicopters & sirens I only can hear but I cant see them. Im in the car with my Mom and we are driving through these gates that are open just wide enough for us to barely drive through. We drove through about 10 of them.


I began to think about birthdays and I think about Bree's Birthday and Byrons Bday tomorrow & I say in my head
{My thoughts}
" I hate him and his attitude, we probably wont even talk on his birthday, Im not gonna tell him happy bday and he prolly wont tell me happy birthday either". Then I think further " I need to ask India when her exact birthday is again, I cant really remember even tho I asked her already...

Im going to get her a double hearted gold necklace and just keep it put up until i find out her birthday".



My Mom and I finally pass through the last gate & some how we make a left but we are driving the oppososite way we turned...


We see Dominique and Bree with their bags as if they were going to a sleepover or something and Dino is just yelling " Bitch! Bitch! damn Man Leave me alone! I swear! I hate Him! and she's just jumping and yelling..

My Mom just drives by and she appears to be sweating like when she's been doing to much work in the kitchen. I say " Mom, I hate this" I really do. Moms is just mumbling and I really cant hear but im barely listening because dino is still walking and yelling down the street. I say again " I hate that when every1 has a problem or gets in trouble, they blame it on me Mom, always". She sits there and continues 2 drive and then there are two mexicans that appear from no where on bikes right in front of us, 2 gang bangers 1 with a white beater on and the other with a blue LA button up and a Blue bandana... They're shooting to the left as they are right in front of us. Im yelling " Mom turn around! turn around! the two dudes werent shooting at us but they keep shooting to the left . My Mom keeps driving straight and dominique is in the car behind us now because i hear her say " niggas out here shootin n'shit".

The 2 mexicans turn left down a street never looking back at us ande My Mom looks at them as they ride away and shoot, and says "Damn Mexicans!". She says it but she says it in a regular tone and then she looks back straight and keeps driving. I look back and Dino, Bree and the Car they were in are gone. I see those 2 Mexicans again. They have their guns in their hands and they're fighting this black dude 2 on 1. I Look back aqgain and I see that the dude is lebre. I said Mom turn around! turn around! turn around!

She keeps driving straightand she has this motionless expression on her face as if she isnt really feeling well. I say Mom! turn around! I gotta go protect lebre. I grab the steering wheel and i try to make a U-turn right, then left and i couldnt while reaching over my Mom.


My Mom says slowly "You always gotta take care of your brothers and sisters".


I look at her and she's sweating Perfusley and seems to be breathing slower. I say Mom are you ok? she Knods her head in a yes motiion as she turns right into a drive way.

I get out and run to the corner and im looking as the dudes are beating up my brother, lebre is fighting back tho. I yell "here i come bro!" I run back to the car and i get back in the passenger seat. I look to My Mom and she wasnt there. I hop out the car and run around to her side and she is laying there on her back face up. I yell " Mom, Mom and I picked her up and im beginning to cry as im holding her and shes getting heavy.... She was dying in my ars and she had this eye opening look on her face that made me feel of her pain. I thought to call 911 but i just stood there crying with her in my hands. I looked back down the street and lebre and the 2 dudes werent there anymore, just the two bikes. there was this music playing and it was making me cry even more.




Then I woke up and the end of the song that was on the music channel 907. I started Crying.... Then i got 2 random text messages from Carelle and Tia . two people I havent talked to in a while. I continue to cry and Uncle B is asking me whats wrong and If im ok. He was like" You aiite P? P! You alright ?"


I popped up out of bed and wrote this bad dream down on paper, and I just typed it onto my blog now...