Im weird. I appear 2 be an ordinary human being like every1 else with my own uniQnesS about me.
Im not th0... Im not ur ordinary human being, in fact, sometimes i doubt im Human.
I think im an Angel.
I think God put me here 2 help others and 2 set an example.
i wonder why everyone called me 2day...
was it because it was easter? or because they havent talked 2 me in a while?
Or was it because they wanted 2 let me know how Proud of me they were and how im gonna make it & how Great it;s gonna feel when hard work pays off.
because thats what everybody was talkin about. "I Love You son. keep up tha Good work"
Ma Momz told me how all ma brothers and sisters have the best grades theyve ever had.
It put a Big smile on my face & it made me feel like everyone is actually growing up.
ya know.
Kids are realizing that maybe college can be an option or just tha simple fact that it feels good 2 have As & Bs on ur report card instead of Fs and Ds.
Especially when Ds and Fs are all youve been used 2 seeing...
Iono th0...
My dad Calls me when he remembers its a holiday. Today was easter.
he called me but i couldnt really talk bcuz i was in the library...
So0 in the 45 seconds he had he managed 2 say " I Love you so0n keep that studying up and ill talk 2 you later, Im proud, Happy easta!"
last time i talked 2 him was probably about 2 months ago b4 dat.
i talked 2 grandma 2day...
she was with Gran. tending 2 her needs like the wonderful daughter she is.
She said " Its always wonderful hearing 4rm u grandson, I thank you for the call, happy easter and I Love You"
i asked her about her day...
she says nothing much is goin on and preceeds 2 tell me about her next mission and i listen, because i care and im there 2 listen 2 Nana.
My Uncle anthony called me 2day, "watup mayne wat u up2?"
i say nuffin chillin studyin, he said o ok man i jus wanted 2 call and say I Love u and keep workin hard and studyin hard... i love u man. I said i love u 2.
then he says " your bells are gonna ring P" u been watchn NCAA? i say yea man, yup. he says yea man das gonna be ma nephew man, im tired of hearn about these freshman ballers steppin up, das you P das you! your bells are gonna ring and u gon get ur shine P i know it" Thanks unc. Ima hit u laters 1 love...
of course i talked 2 my Mom and we talk about everything so0 today was just a MORE blessed day with the 2 of us.
I wonder what it iz about me that gives her so0 much faith in me.
why does she just know im gonna be somethin?
som1 asked me earlier if i feel pressure on ma back tryna set the example 4 all ma lil brothers and sisters, i said naw aint no stress.
im gonna do it 4 them , right?
i ask ma self that question all tha time.
Ma Mom Loves my desire.
She Prays 4 me more than herself, more than i pray 4 maself.
why?what if i fail?
then will she still love me?
I think so0 but i prolly wouldnt love myself.
so0 many things are always goin on, but thats always tha case huh...
I wanna go get some shots up, or maybe be dribble a lil bit outside..
i dont care how cold or dark it iz ill wake up 4 class, ill make sure of it.
where am i gonna be playing ball at next year?
i wanna be a business man.
i think i still wanna act.
i love 2 write. i havent even continued my book i was supposed 2 be writing...
im focusin on school alot this semester and my grades are pickin bak up.
havent spoken 2 my bestfriend in like 2 weeks or so0...
I d0nt think imm like any1 else.
people say what they want 2 say but no1 knows me. i dont even know me 100%
honestly, im just moving with time.
When is God coming back?
i think he's coming back but i dunno if anyone else believes.
Im an Angel. not because i feel 1 way 1 day then 1 way anothr or bcuz i know things b4 they happen or bcuz im nice and caring or bcuz i try2 please the world & im tryna find my purpose in life...or even bcuz I Love God so000 much.
Im an angel because of teh way my heart beats. & how my thoughts speak 2 me in a way that i cant even control them but when i pray 2 God they all come 2 reality.
My heart speaks. my mind speaks. my lips speak. but the fact is that the story of Paul Davis continues 2 be hidden and i dont think any1 will ever be able 2 find out what Paul Davis was ever thinkn or feeling...
i jus wanna have ma 5 to 10 kids. marry a Beautiful and successful woman... live in a healthy and happy home... and make sure my Family is fine. I wanna do right so0 that when God comes back i can go back with him.
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