The Man.

(deeep breath) Hhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sittin' here thinkin' about when everybody would go partyin' on da weekends, week days although they had work in da A.M.

I remember when every1 had they little relationship and after they didnt work every1 jus exchanged boyfriends and girlfriends and "kept it in tha crew"

The limos, the Bud, the Parties, the BIG sleepovers, the Sex, The Vision i still have for some odD Reason...


The Change...

Seems like I was just a Kid while all dat was goin on, I was. I wasnt tha same kid that went 2 sleep at 9 p.m. after watchn cartoons and eating dinner and taking a bath...

I didnt sleep, I waited 4 Momz 2 come home from tha parties, I waited 2 see that Uncle and Aunt do wat they did on those certain nights...

I observed wat went on around me and I learned about things real quick...


I grew up watching and taking in the message of each situation, the right, the wrong.

I studied people, actions, reactions and the events that held all of thosee...

Didnt know wat stress was or death, or even drugs and all dat jazz... i didnt know what it was...

I learned quick...


Now it seems like after everything has gone on over the years... people have left, new people have come in and things have changed in Big ways...



No more partyin', still smokin' but not even as much... No late LATE nights, still some sleepless nights 4 me due 2 these thoughts that stay in ma head...


I grew... I watched people kill themselves. Ive watched people grow, like My Momz. Ive watched people succeed and fail... Ive watched people give in... Ive watched people keep goin.. I met God. he took me under his wing...



Things aint tha same....


This is why u gotta partake in things like COLLEGE, WORK, SPORTS, NEW PLACES/TRAVEL...

there aint nothing where we at... thing shave changed and things have gotten worse, some things have changed 4 the better...

People change and they become influenced, or they want 2 try someTHIN new & get caught....



Ive changed, for the better...
Ive Grown, 2 be Me.
Ive become, a Man...

No drinkin' , no smokin' , no gangs, No negativity, No influence, No fall backs, No givin up, no loss of focus....

Im still growin' and its hard 2 grow around shit that u really dont wanna see... sometimes i wanna cry because this shit jus aint right...


them same Uncles doin this now..
them aunts aint nowhere 2 be found...
My Mom has a disease now...
She cant even work...


But Im here. for a reason? Im here. 2 be The Man.
aint No father runninj in n out of tha house... aint no step Dad aint No otha NIGGA handlin his Business in this family...

Papa did handle his business, but papas gone 2 heaven...

Im here. for a reason? Im here. Im doing well.
I got more sense than tha niggas thas supposed 2 have more sense... Im focused and I have goals and I have God in my heart. I have ma stuff 2gether...

Itsalmost as if Its contagious 2 be a lazy unsuccessful nigga in this Family wit No responsibility and this is comin straight from ma heart and its makin me wanna cry cuz Imtha only 1. That shit aint special 2 me, its sad cuz im sposd 2 have som1 to look up2 also... what if i have a question or a concern Man...


My Little brothers are gonna be successful too, i can promise u that and we gettin tha fu*k out of this peice of sh*t part of this world... Im tired of being Ok 1 day then Bad anotha day then Iono on otha days....


Im The Man. Ive been the Man. I really gotta Be The Man now.